Chuck Platinum - Got Cake (Pound Cake Freestyle)

The Fall Reflection

Wow it's been all summer since I have put my thoughts down and I must say that it's been great this year. I did something this summer that I have not done in 18 years....I let go. I let go of all of my insecurities, let go all of my fears, let go all of the things that I didn't understand and I made a decision to become free.

It has not been easy. I really had to expose some things that I really didn't want to, but I had to make a decision if I wanted to go a certain route and after that it was okay. I refused to be chained to my past because I was more concerned about it affecting my future. I couldn't keep apologizing for the mistakes that I made in my 20s when I am about to turn 35 and then it hit me that.....I really am turning 35.

Did I become sad? Not at all. I am very happy to reach this age. It has come with so many lessons. It has made me more aware of my decisions and in tune with my thoughts. I am more selective about the company that I choose although some you cannot always read their character. Most importantly, I have been learning how to love myself. Loving me has been the best gift that I could have given myself. It has taught me about full acceptance and how people will look at you and judge you. You begin to realize that people don't really know you as well as they may think they do. I am learning that my legacy is deeper than the man who is in this body. I am learning how to become in tune with the world and balancing my interests and the relevance of mankind.

Loving myself has taught me all my wants, needs, and desires. It has taught me what is most pleasurable to me and I do whatever I can to reach that pleasure. Loving myself is making me feel good and not depending on others when they can't. I have watched several peers suffer from that "what happens what the (love) is gone" syndrome. That has become silly to me because when love is true? it is unconditional therefore it never dies! A loved person is not disposable and they are worth the fight because eventually you won't fight once you gain understanding of self and other people.

Entering into the fall and winter I can honestly say that I have grown immensely this year and I look forward to growing more. Life is looking way up and as long as I keep this attitude God will direct me right to my promise land. I will continue to give as long as I live whether it be time, my mind, money or other I want to continue to be used as God's vessel to serve people. My music will live forever even if I perish. I am confident of my legacy. Forever me.....forever free