So Free

I feel so so free. I don't think I have ever felt this free in my life. I am definitely blessed. I have wonderful careers, fantastic bright children, great health, and a wonderful family to match what more can a brother ask for. I am learning to become even more humble and more grateful for the things that are happening to me because it all has been met with some sort of struggle. This was an absolute beautiful summer nothing crazy happened, but everything crazy happened that probably doesn't make sense or maybe it does, but it has been a wonderful summer. I learned a lot about my patience and who I am as a person and what I would like to be to the world. I don't think people really think about that much. After you figure out what you want to be for yourself you have to figure out what would you like to be to the world and when you determine that you begin this process...a growth process that you can not turn back from once you go in this direction. A lot of people give up before they even begin the process because things do get a little hard. If you have some mess that you need to deal with and you have to clean up some things it's going to happen. Once you can face that with ease then everything else just becomes a stepping stone and a learning experience. The key word is discipline. Discipline can go a long way when you learn about how much self control you have. Self control adds value to your life because you begin to hold yourself accountable for your actions. You begin to learn that whatever is happening today is a result of the things that you decided on yesterday. It puts a new meaning to "You reap what you sow." I would say that I am reaping benefits of some great decisions, but it did come with some storms. I had to really humble myself in times where I could have been totally humiliated, but instead stayed head strong and faced things head on and it was hard. Sometimes I cried, or I would get angry and just had no choice, but to go through it. Once you get through it though? everything else becomes a breeze. The mistakes that we make are not permanent unless it is against the law and depending on how detrimental it is you can still do the right thing even when your past didn't permit it. A lot of times we don't succeed because we live in regret of who we once were or maybe we still are and wanting to be better. There is no reason to feel guilty for things that may have gone wrong in the past, but when you can forgive yourself and move forward in an honest direction? What will the things someone thinks of you matter? When will an opinion matter? When will growing and moving on be something that will become a part of your everyday? When I made that decision my life changed drastically. I am still learning and growing, but I am certainly proud of the man I am today and I will continue to keep my eyes, ears, mind and heart open to all the possibilities life has to offer. We only have one life and no one can dictate the direction of where your life is going. We choose to accept the things that come to us. Most of the time we can not control the circumstance anyway so we will just have to deal with it. Be free. Be YOU.