I got some shit on my mind

You know what? LOL today is the day I say fuck itttttttttttttt. Man anyone that knows me knows that I am a pretty happy dude for the most part, but you know what irritates me is that just when you think you are doing the right thing and you know..someone is happy then here comes something else like okay damn what did I do now? Its like what if I didn't exist? Then I wouldn't be a burden to your life right? Or what if I just cut myself off from your life then you won't miss me at all right? I think what people have a tendency to do is take advantage that people are just going to be here and that they will be around and then when they are gone they begin to realize hey...you know what? that person wasn't all that bad to be around, but by then? its too late.

So today I just say to hell with trying to please people or trying to make people happy. If you don't like me around or you have a problem with me being around or being in my presence is "too" much for you or I am that much of a burden that a simple conversation is a strain...then damn leave me be because for every one person that is unhappy there is 5 more people that would love to have me in their company. I try not to treat people that way because that sucks when you treat someone like they aren't important in your life...thats a real sucky feeling so you know..this is just some thoughts on my brain today and doing blogs usually helps me dump it out so I can keep the day moving on a positive level so if you are feeling me on this today let me know because you know what? I am really starting to feel alone and I guess it gets lonely at the top ...so I hear...and don't try to figure me out...if it don't apply let it fly. YEP this means YOU! LOL

Help me out readers!!!

The Last Year!!

I don't know man I just been kind of feeling really good! Life has a way of changing on its own when you make moves that you feel are the best for you. This last year has been very challenging for me. Marriage has been crazy, moved back to New York, discovered a new addition in my life, dealt with my best friend becoming a foe, its been really crazy! Throughout the struggle though comes greatness. Honestly when I came back home I thought that I was backtracking because I thought I had it all togeher when I was on the west coast. How it turned out though was me coming here and making better and smarter moves for my life. It was time for me to really bite the bullet and face things that as a younger man I would have normally shunned away from, but being back in New York has deeply humbled me and made me more aware of my surroundings. So now today you see a bearer of confidence, agility, destruction free, defined make of a gentleman. Hey I am still growing but as the world grows with me I will continue writing to you and keeping it thorough and personal...so welcome to the Chuck Platinum experience my fellow friends, bloggers, twitterinos, myspacers, taggers and the world wide web love you all!